An Untitled Feeling, and Untitled Wish

 

Shadows and glimpses, beauty untold.

A wisp, a fairy, rarely here to behold,

The talk of our hearts, the singing of our minds,

The concept I wished to be mine.

 

Flourishing like a rose,

As dew drops gently glide on petals,

My feelings to be once again disposed,

Success? I fear the outcome looks fatal.

 

The rose doesn’t belong to me,

But so my heart does not either,

To regain the sincerity of being free,

To regain the idea of belonging to me,

The fulfillment of this concept to be neither.

 

The crescent moon stands tall,

Parading in the soft velvet dress called night,

Her ethereal light gleams on the tip of a petal.

Like a bell that tolls,

The wind faintly calls,

I beg thee sleep to take me in her arms,

And merely hold me tight.

 

Dream of a rose if I may,

Dream of a heart to take,

Dream of freedom as I lay,

To toss and turn, for only…..

 

 

 

…..To wake.

 

- Midnight

 

(Written July 29, 2007)

To My One and Only

When I look in your eyes, I get lost in your world.

When I hear your voice, it’s like a song from Heaven,

Which takes me on an adventure of walking on streets of gold,

 and taking pictures by gates of pearl.

All I see is you.

What is this spell that has me mystified?

I’m done denying that I love you.

I am your’s, will you be mine?

Take my hand, I will hold your’s tight; never to let go.

Then as I pull you closer to me, fall into my arms; never to be released.

Then as my lips touch yours, all fireworks will ignite; setting the sky a-glow.

I will feel that magic, and know you’re forever mine and that I.. Will be forever your’s.

You will turn this hopeless romantic into a hopeless lover and

We will dance the night away,

 we will kiss beneath the moonlight.

I am waiting for you at the end of a flower-laiden path.

Wear a dress of white.

Come, make me your knight.

You are the song of my soul, as it pierces me deeper than words alone.

Let’s love each other past the end of time,

As you will always be my world, my reason.

I am your’s..

Will you be mine?

 

 

(If only I had someone to give this to.)

-Midnight

What is Love? Baby Don’t Hurt Me.

 To whom it may concern:

 

1 Corinthians 13:4-8

“Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all tings. Love never fails…”

 

 

So I have been wondering for quite some time now. Is there truly one person set apart for us by God? A person that is His perfect will.. and those that are ok with God merely His permissive will? Such as… Two people are in love, they are both christians and are following the Lord. They pray about marriage, God says ‘no’. A year later, the man of the relationship meets a woman, falls in love (yes, she is a christian), God says ‘yes.’ That to me is proof right there that God has a set “One” for everyone.. but as I talk with others, I seem to be faced with disagreements about this subject time to time.. God has a plan for our lives, right? Our future is mapped out in His will, right? So that must mean, even our love life is planned and mapped.

 

While I believe all of this, it just makes everything so much harder. It’s like trying to find the one grey marble in a jar full of black marbles.. and what if I’m so stuck on someone being my one.. and then she isn’t? But say for some reason I can’t get past it; couldn’t that lead to me not even noticing the right one?

 

Am I maybe just over complicating all of this?

 

I decided that I’m not allowed to like people anymore. haha, yeah.. Or at least when I have a passing crush, I’m going to just keep it to myself.. as I tend to be fickle/wishy-washy.

I long for love, but I’m not desperate. To me, other than God, love is the greatest thing this life has to offer and without it, life would not be worth living.. so I guess I should be pretty thankful for my savior..

 

-Midnight